weee..

saya dah jumpe pelamin sy nak!!..tp vendor tu jauhhh..diorg xmo cater smpi segamat.. *xsuke duk segamat* //ayat xsedar dr....

sy da jumpe vendor yg willing nak cater smpi segamat.. n mcm best je deal ngn diorg ni.. yg ni bole buat tuk both majlis..tp xtau diorg ada x props mcm yg sy nak tuk mjlis kat segamat..huuu.. kerusi plg penting.. haha..

mcm mana ni???

*org gila yg mcm la nak kawen bulan depan..keke*
**xsalah kan kalau berangan skrg?**

apa tentang tunang kamu yg membuatkan kamu rasa bahagia?

penyabar.matured.tak ego. n he share evrything with me. =D

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dalam seminggu berapa hari kerja?

5.. =D

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hari minggu selalu wat pe?

kalau xdisuruh kerja. makan-tdo-dating.. =D

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Have you cried during a movie?

yes.

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berapa jauh opis dengan rumah sewa?

mmm..selang satu stesen lrt. =D

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balik selalu kul berape?

depends..kdg2 6..kdg2 7..kdg2 8..

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masuk opis kul berape?

9.. =)

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pergi kerja ngan ape?

naik tren je.. =)

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nak kahwin ke x?

bila terbaca ni...

"Jangan Kahwin Dengan Dia!Dia Suka Menonton Gay Porno!"

scaryyyy...

rase bersyukur ada..rasa takut pun ada..coz we can't predict the future. semuanya dlm tgn Allah...

dulu mak penah pesan.. mmg la nak cari suami kena cari yg beriman.. yg taat pd perintah agama... tapi kena fikir jugak.. kalau taat pada Allah je.. tanggungjawab lain diabaikan..xguna jugak..

masa tu terus rasa...susaaahhhnyee..nak cari org yg boleh jaga..nak cari org yg boleh kita harap kan.. nak letak kan kepercayaan pd org lain..selain mak ayah.. boleh ke org tu syg kita..mcm mak ngn ayah syg.. 

perempuan berkahwin ibarat dia serah kan diri. harta. even dosa pahala pun pd suami.. jumpa ke dgn org yg sanggup pikul amanah mcm tu??... pikir byk2 mcm ni.. rasa xnak kawen.. biar jaga dr sndr..lg senang.. xharapkan org... sbb bnda yg plg sakit bila kita xdpt seperti apa yg kita harapkan....

kes mcm kat atas tu.. has haunted me since i was kid. masa tu mak ada besfren..akk tu baik sgt.. boifren dia pun baik.. nmpak ok je la.. bila dah smpi jodoh diorg pun kawin...nak kata baru kenal..dah lama rasanye.. tp masa akk tu pregnant first child...dpt tau yg husband dia ni..dah buntingkan org lain dulu.. perempuan tu dgn mak dia dtg rumah merayu2 suh lelaki tu bertgjwb... sapa sangka kan. depan indah je.. tapiii..

terus huru hara hidup akk tu.. nak hadap org kg..family.. anak yg dia tgh kandung... tp lepas tu mak lost contact.. rasenye dah bercerai lepas lama digantung xbertali..

bila bnda ni jd masa sy kecik..mase tu tambah pengaruh2 drama pun ada..budak2 kan.. bila dah besar.. masih rase phobia.. walaupun tu semua ketentuan tuhan.. tp..xnk nasib sy jd mcm tu.. 

zaman skrg ni...laaaaagiiii susah nk percaya org.. yg bergelar ustaz pun ade rogol org..raba org... mmg la bukan semua n title xmenentukan apa2.. tp kenapa org bg title tu kalau bukan sbb ilmunya..mana ilmu dia bila buat bnda2 mcm tu..

ada je org2 keliling sy..(lelaki)..yg sy tau perangai dia mcm mana.. certain mmg kawin dgn org yg selayaknya.. mcm Allah ckp.. lelaki baik utk perempuan baik...means lelaki jahat utk perempuan jahat la kan.. tp ada jugak yg kawin dgn perempuan yg baik.. (xtau la..nmpak luaran je..).. betul. rasa mcm nak jerit.."Jangan kawin ngn dia!!..awak boleh cari lelaki lain yg lg bagus.." tp..fikir positive..mungkin perempuan tu dah tau semua background lelaki tu..dan boleh terima..jadi kita doakan diorg bahagia je la kann.. pintu taubat kan sentiasa terbuka...kalau la dekat luar2 sana ada perkahwinan yg dia xtau betul2 background lelaki tu.. apa nasib dia??....

mungkin sbb ni la...berkira2 dulu nk berkawan dgn lelaki.. (berkwn yg lebih dr kawan).... bila mr.k dtg semula.. it took me less than 1 week to accept him... sng je hati tu terbuka.. *senyum*

mybe mmg ada chemistry (xtau la..tuhan je yg tau apa yg terbaik)... ada jugak terfikir.. am i doing the right thing. is it worth it if i be with him. sbb hati dr dulu dah decide. hanya perlu satu lelaki utk yg pertama dan terakhir.. xnak tersilap..xnak terima bila cinta pertama xmenjadi..eceeyhh.. akhirnye..bila fikir2 i've known him since i was 10. it's like everything.. his family background.. his past time.. sy tahu..mak pun tahu.. then sy rasa dia lah mr.right sy...walaupun ada beberapa perkara yg berlaku yg menyakitkan masa dia belajar dulu *ok, xbaik ungkit lg*.. at least i know... and he's changed. berubah yg totally berubah.. yg sy dpt tgk dgn mata sndr..dia mnjadi seorg lelaki yg ada vision. think about others more than himself. walaupun dia not a caring-type person..but i know his tried so hard to be.

*eh kenapa masuk mode puji2 mr.k ni?*

**tuka channel**

bila dah bertunang..maksudnye nak kawin la kann.. jd kehidupan sy sekrg..tgk keliling..bc di merata2.. how to keep your marriage successful and long lasting forever. sy xbeli buku2..tp belajar dr kehidupan keliling.. 

ada seorg kenalan, not going to mention her name, it's wrong for telling someone's marriage problem here, but i wanna share n peringatan utk dr sndr, diorg kawin muda.. diorg nmpak sweet sgt.. her husband pun seems love her a lot.. tp biasa la.. cabaran plg hebat bila ada org ke-3.. smpaikan si husband sanggup..mengaku he love the other woman more than his wife infront the threeof them.. mana tgjwb si husband, mana janji dia semasa nikah..yg dia akan jaga maruah isteri?.. rasa puas ke seorg lelaki..ikut kata ego nye..dgn jatuhkan maruah perempuan smpi mcm tu skali.. dia isteri. dia bukan kekasih yg main couple2 je..

apa yg buat sy kagum..si isteri tu xmelenting pun.. *she seriously done the right thing*.. xsenyum. xmarah. *speechless*.. she tried her best to keep their marriage..she sacrifice everything.. and yes, masih boleh diselamatkan..insyaallah.. jom kita doakan..slh seorg msti mengalah..walaupun perit.. tp bila kita terpaksa lakukan apa je..utk tidak kehilangan org yg kita syg. it's worth it. 

**me & mr.k sweet talk** sweet ke??..huuu

i do share this story with him, apa yg sy cuba tekan kan pd dia ialah... no hide-feelings between us...coz i know, one day it will burst out and get more worse. i'm a kind of person kalau xpuas hati..ckp terus terang..but mr.k not..*tgh trained pkck neh*.. dia simpan sbb nak jaga my feeling.. it's not good. sometime yes.. but perkara2 kat atas mungkin jd and at the mean time u will accumulate everything in one shot...then, biasalah ktorg..masing mesti nak menegakkan pendirian..hehe.. sy nak menangkan perempuan..lelaki nak menangkan lelaki.. 

tp kesiankan lelaki..kalau isteri main kayu 3. lelaki yg akan dituduh dayus. kalau lelaki yg main kayu 3.. lelaki dituduh gatal...pdn muka sape jd lelaki.. =P

mr.k : "isteri..kalau keluar rumah..tanpa izin suami..berdosa x?"

me: "dosa la.."

mr.k : "suami kalau keluar rumah..sesuka hati..dosa ke?"

me : "tak la..dosa ke?" *confuse kenapa dia tnye mcm ni..rasa dulu pkck nih ambik munakahat gak*

mr.k : "isteri..kalau xnak lyn suami..dosa x?"

me : "mm..dosa.."

mr.k : "lelaki..kalau xnak lyn isteri?"

me : "taaakk.. isteri kalau suami buat apa2..simpan je la dlm hati..kesiankan.."

mr.k : "kejam kan lelaki?"

me : " u mean?"

mr.k : "tau kenapa i ckp semua ni?..kalau boleh.. i nak kita adil... walaupun lelaki tu nakhoda kapal.. tp kalau xde anak kapal..dia la yg kena naikkan layar.. control stereng.. jaga kapal.. u rasa kapal tu boleh pg jauh ke?"

me : *mase ni speechless..sy bole senyum n tgk dia je..*

ya allah.. permudahkan la urusan kami.. berikan lah peluang pd kami utk buktikan..yg kami boleh mengharap antara satu sama lain.. amin. =)

p/s: harap2 gaji mr.k naik mcm yg di war2kan..amiiinn..

p/s: harap2..diorg jdkan la sy permanent staff..amiiinn

*cik ummi kata rezeki org nak kawin lain.... amin. amin.

macam ne persiapan kawen?

tgh berangan.. =P

Ask me anything

count on me

lagu ni..sy tuju kan khas utk kwn2 sy di luar sana..ceeyyhh..

lagu ni pernah dgr skali.. tp masa tu mcm lyn xlyn.. skrg dgr byk2 kali..layaaaannnn.. cik anis yg tag kat FB.. terharu... T_T

if you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea

i'll sail the world to find you

if you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see

i'll be the light to guide you

find out what we're made of

when we are called to help our friends in need

you can count on me like one, two, three

i'll be there

and i know when i need it

i can count on you like four, three, two

and you'll be there

cos that's what friends are suppose to do

oh yeah

(ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh)

(ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh)

(yeah yeah)

if you're tossing and you're turning and you just can't fall asleep

i'll sing a song beside you

and if you ever forget how much you really mean to me

everyday i will remind you

oh

find out what we're made of

when we are called to help our friends in need

you can count on me like one, two, three

i'll be there

and i know when i need it

i can count on you like four, three, two

and you'll be there

cos that's what friends are suppose to do

oh yeah

(ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh)

(ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh)

(yeah yeah)

you'll always have my shoulder when you cry

i'll never let go, never say good-bye

you know you can count on me like one, two, three

i'll be there

and i know when i need it

i can count on you like four, three, two

and you'll be there

cos that's what friends are suppose to do

oh yeah

(ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh)

(ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh)

you can count on me cos i can count on you

bila dgr rase nak peluk2 semua org.. tp sy tau tgn sy xcukup nak peluk semua kwn2 sy.. owhh..rindu nye mereka.. yg dr skolah..dr matrix.. dr itm.. smpi la skrg ade di keliling sy... mak selalu ckp..ramai kwn awak kan?...alhamdulillah... tp sy harap dlm ramai2 ni..xde la yg kecik hati..dendam ngn sy ye.. mintak maaf kalau sy menyakitkan tanpa sedar..heee...

koraaanngg..jom pg konsert bruno mars ni!..haha..*mati la ajak kwn2 ke tempat kejahilan..

bila nak kawen?

asap

Ask me anything

morning monday!!

pagi isnin yg dimulakan dengan sakit kepala.. =(

yg kerap:

 - Cluster headache

yg sederhana kerap:

 - Tension headache

yg kadang2:

 - Migraine

"Cluster headache is one of the most painful types of headache." yes!....sakit gila. mcm ada org tgh hentak2 cucuk2 belakang mata ni.. nak picit pun xtau which area yg boleh kurangkan rasa sakit.. lg teruk kalau tertarik rambut.. rase cam nak terjojol je bijik mata..iskk..

i believe all this aches were due to bright light.. may be la.. kat ofis je more than 8 hours mengadap PC.. balik rumah tgk TV lagi.. tgk fb lagi..huu.. tp xboleh nak lari.. mmg rase lain kalau xmengadap PC, bb, tv xdek xpe..tu belum kira lepas drive mlm.... 

mak: "pg clinic..pg opto kalau boleh..jgn asik ingt adik2 je..dr awak kena jaga jugak.."

sy: T_T...

walaupun nampak simple..tp byk nye yg nak kena fikir..kdg2 hanyut..sampan hanyut dgn pendayung skali.. nk berenang xtau... 

job

see..i've told you.

he frightened me a bit btw..huhu, the truth is, if something happen on server..haha.. kill kill!!..die die!! 

memang, its not my job.. tp my lead suruh belaja and menyahut seruan mgr supaya

"improve ur technical skill."

mungkin lepas ni sy request je kat org yg sepatutnye.. utk deployment susah sket.. kalau patching tu ok la jugak.. so, sebelum sy melakukan perkara yg xsepatutnye..baik pass kat org lain..

sape ckp keje IT in banking..main betul2 kan PC jek.. mentang2 la bank tmpat kira duit.. skrg yg kira duit pun komputer okeh.. mentallity sesetgh org..asal ambik IT je..pndai betulkan komputer..kenal segala mcm virus.. asal keje TM jek.. tau psl streamyx..eh, xde kena mengena.. tp mmg xpatut la kann kalau dulu belajar IT..pc/laptop sndr pg hantar format kat kedai byr 100 ringgit.. bakar je la cert tu..xnak buat bisnes pun..lepas tuk dr sndr jadik la kann.. setiap bidang kat dunia ni..ade tugas masing2..jd jgn la perlekeh2 kan.. nampak ckgu pra skolah cam sng je.. suh budak2 pg mkn..ajar abc.. tp sape tau..keje diorg laaagii mencabar.. ngn budak2 skrg yg manja xbertempat..kan2?...jd.. kita ni sbnrnye saling memerlukan.. xpyh malu dgn kerjaya kita walaupun xglemer.. *teringt citer putri impian..huk3.. sekian