Wishlist 2015

Last year. 27 nov. I have posted about my wishlist.
Lets see if everything comes true.

1. Rumah = insyaallah will move in 4dec. Just a small little house for our small family. Alhamdulillah.
Mulanya hanya angan2.. dgn rasa yg bercampur baur..xtau dpt teruskan ke tak.. tak tau menetapi kriteria rumah impian ke tak.. tp ttp teruskan.. sbb mmg sedar diri hanya itu lah yg termampu.. syukur allah mudahkan semuanya.. mmg bergolok bergadai dan masih mengharapkan rezeki yg lebih.. insyaallah.. semoga ini lah yg terbaik..

2. Camera & new phone = closed case.

3. Join mak umrah = dugaan yg xdijangka.. xde rezeki lagi mak nk pg umrah tahun ni.. insyaallah.. semoga ada rezeki akan dtg.. 😭

4. Simpan duit holiday = xde bayang. Haha

Ok. What has past is past. Next year.. apa plan?

1. Feb mesti settled all outstanding hutang. (Ada few jd outstanding sbb urusan beli rumah.. sobbss)
2. More savings!
3. By end of year. Free from loan! (At least one of our loans) haha..
4. My dream kitchen
5. Ilhan's school.
6. Mr.k sambung study.

I was never imagine azam tahun lepas ada yg terlaksana. Masa tulis haritu mmg angan2 belaka.. tp sungguh allah mudahkan.. alhamdulillah.. jadi kali ni nak tulis lg la..
Mana tau ada yg aminkan.. mudah juga urusan tahun depan.. 😊😊😊😊

Ilhan with opah

Ilhan is now with opah. We had left him since last month. After 3 weeks go back to my mom's house. Its totally heart broken when we look into his eyes and seems he sees us like strangers.

Patut la org yg tggl anak dia kat kg.. mmg kurang bonding dgn parents. Mungkin bukan sbb dia xsyg.. tp dia xbiasa.

Dah rasa mcm tu once, then kenapa nk tggl lg? Kan?
There are few matters that we have to deal. Nak xnak we have no choice to leave him again. This is the longest i havent see him. More than 3 weeks.
I feel like squeeeeezzingg..shrinking..dying..missing like hell..

Tgn rasa mcm terasa2 nak tangkap dia.. mulut terasa2 mcm nk gomol dia.. hidung terasa2 mcm nak cium dia..

Its painful.. sggttt... 😭😭😭😭😭

Back to scope

Alhamdulillah..
Officially back to Scope on 3rd Nov 2014. Birthday Mr.k.. senang ingat..hehe

After drama here and there. 5 months of waiting. Im here listening to hilaian tawa of previous manager yg ku rindui setahun yg lalu..kaaahh

She moved to other building actually but once in a while or once a week dia akan dtg pj. Just nice the day i reported to scope, bumped into her on the train.. punya la nak sorok2 xnak jumpa kat ofis. Dlm train pun jadik.. tu la kalau dah jodoh kann..kaaahhh

Well, my experience on job transition is only tiny little bit. 1st job as account executive at one network company attached to telekom. Sangat2 fresh masa tu.. gaji pun xsampai 2k. Not my dream job after all but just having some experience. I learn how to meet peoples.. and its only lasted for 2 months..

Lepas tu training with gov program and attached to Scope. It was easy. Tak ada culture shock sbb we are doing what we have learned. Expectation for the first 3 months pun not that high sbb u are only intern. Geng nak mengadu ramaaiii.. kwn2 dr uitm pun ramaiii.. alhamdulillah.. allah eased everything.. but its not always that easy rite..

Decided to move on after 3 years. Considered this is my first resignation for real. The feelings, expectations, everything is totally different.

Masuk new company without knowing anyone in there. I thought i can do something on my attitude.. kurang jadi pemalu.. become more confident.. however... *sigh*
Ilhan is only 6 months that time.. i have to adapt with alot of things. It was hard but i have only passed after the 9 months. I have met a lot of friends which so adorable, very very nice and helpful in everything..

Somehow my confident level is back to a correct state. Not too high not too low..i felt so good.. i start doubting about moving on.. *padahal masa tu da send resume da*
I start felt syg to everything. But decision have to be made.. pros and cons is everywhere..
Oppurtunities is always there for u to grab. Its your own choice.

Back to the place that i have been for 3 years. Im totally feel like home!
Mmg buat mcm rumah sendiri walaupun xde passcard.. cari hr la. Request mcm2 dkt it centre. Luckily there is still one same person and still recognize me..hehe
In term of tasks.. sangat byk berubah. Thats make me scared. Im in a state of knowing nothing but have to do everything. But insyaallah.. i just feel good as the trust is there. I have to perform. For sure..

And..not to forget.. ilhan. He is on development state now.. can i? Can i commit to him? Can i be a good mother? I have to!

Alhamdulillah.. this is all His love and bless. Syukur alhamdulillah..