from mommy..

Dear Baby,

mommy wrote this after a day i knew i'm pregnant (Fri,22 June). first of all i'm so sorry if you can feel the 'unhappy' i am..its not that i'm not happy to have u. NO. its just i'm confused..frightened..no confident.. but at the same time i really want to tell the whole world that your daddy going to be a daddy!!

i did the test while in office, actually i have a plan to hide it from ur daddy.. i'm sorry if u can feel the 'unwanted' felt from me.. even i can feel u r here..right inside my tummy, but there's still a hope for the result to be negative.. no. its not that i dont want u.. its like i dunnooo what to doo....

i'm so sorry for contemplating on u.. i am so sorry...

its a relief when one of my fren said

"its exciting to have a baby, but u hv to sacrifice a bit of ur own fun

wtv it is, jz believe its the best decided for both of u.."

well, by thinking of there is still a lots of thing i wanna do.. lots of thing i still owe ur grandmas and grandpas.. there's is still a lots of thing i wanna do for ur uncles and aunties.. there's still lots of thing i wanna do for myself.. for ur daddy.. here goes all the negative minds..

BUT, i wish that u can see how happy, how shock, how excited ur daddy when i told him u r here.. he stop the walk.. he can't see the KFC even its just around us..he's shaking..his hand veryyy cold..he like dunno where to go..he lost his track!.. he speechless. he hold my hand tightly..very tight. he look at me like he wanna kiss me..hug me.. but we are in the middle of shopping complex..hee.. he cant stop his smile until we slept last nite.. 

see how happy ur daddy, i lost all my confused..my miserable.. only thing i felt is i am the happiest woman in the world!.. because i can make ur daddy as the happiest man in the world! i'm sorry that i forgot to record daddy's face.. maybe when u come to the world lets have some video..at least u will be there also. =)

we had sweet talk bout u last nite, since mommy and daddy was soo excited.. i always want to keep my eyes open on ur daddy's face..so that ur eyes..u nose..ur lips will look like him..hehe..they r waayy cuter than mine..but i wish not the hair.. c'mon..spare some for mommy..ok baby?..hehe

insyaallah.. u going to change our world.. u r the symbol of our love...

alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..i know u r the best rezeki from Allah..

i hope u keep well, insyaallah i will try my best to be the best mom for u..


at first, we just relied on the 2 test.. n daddy so takut if the test is only a prank..hehe.. insyaallah..i know u not that noty..hehe.. i cant sleep well last nite cos of the fever.. i felt very hot inside..ur daddy took care of me very well, alhamdulillah.... 


i tot u only 10 days old, but doc had confirmed u should be 1 month old already. i'm sorry i didnt notice it earlier and may be i have done something that could harm you syg.. doc advised me to take only good food for you.. i'll try ok?


i'm not supposed to shared it over here yet, i know its still too early..
but i might need helps & doa from those who read this for u syg..
keep doing well n mommy & daddy will try the best for you..  mmuuaahh!



from mommy,
Saturday, 23 June 2012