Org rindu.

Ttbe sebelum pejam mata mlm ni.. Trbyg2 zaman sekolah..

Main jeling2 ngn mr.k..
Tabur bedak dlm beg skolah mr.k..
Sembunyikn bj pengawas mr.k masa dia pg latihan bola..
Malu2 kucing bila trserempak dia mandi kat tmpat wuduk.. *ofcos la pki suar*
Lumba basikal bila blik skolah..
Main selit surat kat bwh meja..
Setiap hari excited+nervous weyh nk g skolah.. Setiap hari nk nmpk cantik.. *pdhl masa tu itam cam bontot kuali*
Pastu malu2 kucing bila kwn2 lain usik.. *lempanglelaju*

Ruginya surat2 tu da dbuang.. Gambar pun da dibakar..
Frust la konon2 masa f2 dpt tau mr.k da jmpe org lain..
2 taun gak simpan gamba tu..hee

Aishh..org xpernah berasing sejak kawen..
Bila xbole tdo mcm ni..xde geng nk borak or imbau kenangan dolu2.. Keke..
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Motherhood first 20days

1st nite ilhan sgt baik.. Asik tdo je smpi nurse bshkn nk suh bgn menyusu..
2nd nite. Da start meragam.siang masa ramai org dtg lawat ilhan behave sgt2..tp lepas cik umi blik je..lps mgrb, dia da start xbole ltk..
Dah susu..da tepuk2.. Nangis je.. Nk pg toilet pun xdpt..
Akhirnye pukul 2pagi baru dpt bersihkn bdn n blik2 toilet ilhan melalak.. Since ada 2-3 baby lg yg nangis..so xde la rasa brslh sgt..
N mlm tu..bentan..hu.. Dgn katil2 skali rasa gegar sbb menggigil teruk.. Pgl nurse, dia ambk ilhan n bg extra selimut.. Lps tu da xsdr n tau2 da pukul 5..nurse pulangkan ilhan..
Sakitnye bdn..xselesanye tuhan je tau.. Then whole day ilhan buat perangai ups n down..
Doa sgt2 bole blik aritu sbb seriously I need help.. Duduk hosp nurse bkn tlg sgt.. Diorg dtg bersihkn baby je pagi2..
Alhamdulillah, 2mac dlm pukul 6 da bole discharge..
Btw ptg tu tergempar jugak ilhan peepee brdarah.. Ada red stain kat pampers.. Ble doc check xde pape.. Its just crystal n normal.
Mlm tu mula journey xtdo mlm.. Xdpt nk baring pun sbb ilhan menangis je.. Tp nasib baik ada mak n mr.k..
Mak la yg tepuk2.bwk sana sini.. Abah bc kan ayat mcm2..
I was so busy with pumping.. Mr.k urut2 kan bdn n soothing me..
Subhanallah..rase brsyukur sgt dikelilingi dgn org2 yg sgt memahami..
Mmg ilhan xcukup susu.. Smpi guna sudu..bg 1 sudu diam..me keep pumping sbb nk kumpul lg satu sudu..n setitik pun ms tu sgt berharga.. *kesat air mata*
Masuk hari ketiga mak da start brbunyi cr susu formula..tp xpush sgt..n stil negotiable ble mintak bg masa lg.. But then dia suh mr.k pg klinik utk cr milk booster..
N mengalah jugak ble mak bg air zamzam.. Nasib baik ada air zamzam.. That day mata ilhan da start ada kuning2..so gilir2 bg susu n air zamzam..
Alhamdulillah.. Mr.k pg farmasi n dia cdgkan minum ni.

Lps minum ni susu mmg bertambah but ilhan now asking for more.. Until now I'm stil coping but not really struggling.. Rasa bersyukur sgt2 dgn support yg dpt dr mak n mr.k.. Without them I'm might only cry n do nothing..
Mak ckp..ni la hikmah I was so sbr brthn tgu smpi 3 hari baru bersalin.. *sbb ada one time dia call ms kat hosp xmampu nk brckp sbb sakit. Then dia da push mr.k utk tye doc if I shud go for ceaserian* mak kan.. Cpt risau.. Tp me n mr.k mcm biasa..mintak masa.. Hehe..
Kalau czer..I can't cope with bf..
Then hikmah ilhan menangis xberenti.. We know he didn't get enough milk.. Mmg letih yg teramat.. Tp I've tried not too stress bout that.. Keep calm.. N akhirnye ilhan is jaundice free..
I'm proud of myself. Seriously..
Skrg ilhan sdg membesar..ramai tegur dia cpt besar.. Nothing made me proud the most bila org tye.'Susu bdn?'
'A'a..susu bdn' =D
Ada ups n down everyday, its aint easy.. Mmg bole fhm kenapa ada mommies yg xdpt nk teruskn..
Semangat mmg kena jitu n supports from elders, husband..
Me. I got
Mak yg byk sgt tlg..yg plg penting she trust me as always..tu da sgt2 cukup..
MIL yg support dr jauh.. Kalau call selalu ckp kita kena yakin..mcm2 mana pun bf is the best milk ever.
My husband yg tlg picitkn bdn..tlg angkat..tlg suapkan mkn..tlg suapkan air..tlg uruskan ilhan..
I'm so blissful..syukur ya allah..
Semoga sy terus tabah n full of passion utk bf ilhan..n semoga ada rezeki ilhan sbb I'm truly ikhlas to bf u son.. Amin.

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Having baby at HUKM part 3 (finale)

Ni kaunter emergency o&g..

Yg ni waiting area.. N pintu yg ada katil 2 tempat first masuk utk doc check sama ada kena msuk wad or x n monitor jantung baby..

Things bout hukm
1. Hukm xde class..semua wad sama..1 wad ramai. Ada lbih krg 22 katil. Tp divided by partition(dinding).. Satu ruang ada 6 katil.. Kwsn katil ok la.. Luas sket dr hosp biasa n ada tirai yg bole ttp ful.
Mlm mmg bising suara baby perang. Tp lucky me..my 1st 2night xrmi org. 3 katil je utilize n xde baby lg..
Toilet dkt n ada mcm2 jenis.. Ada yg bowl cangkung n duduk. Ada shower room. Bj or pape linen bole ambik sndr.. So me tiap kali mandi tuka bj..haha.. Pastu.. Kdg2 ambk bj yg cantik2 sket awal2..alas tilam pun slalu ambk..kalo x tgu nurse tukarkn ble diorg kms katil pagi2..
Bilik solat pun ada..tp xde kerusi kot, so ari2 pg tgk qiblat je.. Pas2 solat kat katil..
Sbb belum nk brsalin lg. Husband xleh tmn kat dlm wad.. Kena folow waktu melawat..Tp bole je msuk.. Nk antar brg ke apa..
2. Sbb kena induce. Kena masuk 1st stage labor.. Kat situ kira mcm blik mnunggu utk brsalin. Ada 4 katil je.. Husband xbole masuk lg..tp bole tgu kat waiting area. Ada sofa.
Ble da smpi ms nk deliver..diorg akan tolak msuk labor n panggil husband.
Time mcm ni seeloknya husband mmg stdby je la..
Myb kalau org tu da betul nk brsalin.. No need induce or epi dia xkn msuk 1st stage ni. Trus masuk labor.
3. Labor room adalah blik. Sorg satu..tp blik kck je la.. Dlm tu ada incubator n sink. Husband je yg dbenarkn msuk. Baby pun if ada prob..mcm ilhan suhu bdn dia rendah..diorg ltk dia dlm incubator skjp kat blik 2 jugak. Gynae, paed, nurses akan keluar msuk blik 2 utk check.
Ble baby da ok. Ayah bole la azankn, siap ada tanda qiblat. N lps 2 diorg akan train mcm mana nk bf.
Even da praktis da pg antenatal clas.. For real kekok n blur jugak..hu
4. Nurses. Semua baik2.. Ada la yg tegas..mana ada org bwk kain alas kaki kat wad..tp sy bwk..lalala..
Semata2 nk lap kaki sblm naik atas katil..keke.. So pg2 ble nurse dtg kms msti tnye kenapa ada kain kat bwh..hu..
Nurses n midwife kat labor room pun baik2..even masa tu kind of giving up.. Diorg stil bg ful support. Xde pun dgr2 kata2 yg xbest..suapkan air lg..
Sbbkn 1st time.. Siap tnye lg.. 'Nurse..rasa sakit mcm mana yg mmg btol2 baby da nk keluar?'
Yela..semua org kat situ sakit.. Tp thp sakit org lain2.. Ada org jenis thn sakit.. So takut ble mengadu nti diorg mrh pulak..diorg jwb ok je.. N tye lg,
'puan da ada rasa mcm 2 ke?' Hehe
Sama jugak masa nk bf.. Diorg xpush n xmarah2..
Cuma ble da blik wad. Diorg akan tegur n keep remind u to bf ur baby. Awal2 baby mmg tdo je..same as the mother la..penat kot.. Diorg akan kejutkan, kdg2 bshkn baby to wake they up..
5. About jahit after delivery. Xsakit lgsg. Masa midwife jahit dia say sory n ckp kat one part 2 sakit sikit. Pelik sbb kan da bius so I asked
'Bkn da bius ke?'
Then, dia ckp ada area yg kdg2 stil sakit.. But again, lucky me.. Xrasa apa..
Btw, sblm 2 doc yg jahitkn.. Tp dgr2 diorg ckp doc tu salah jahit n midwife tu bkk blik kot. I never ask n xtgk pun sbb ngeri.. Pndang baby je kat tepi..tau2 da setel.
6. Cost. Utk delivery shj.. Masa 1st kita dtg kat emergency o&g..kena byr RM50. Lps 2 kena byr deposit RM500 kat kaunter lain. Husband je la pg tp bkn la time2 tu gak..after wife settle down pun bole..since ktorg guna GL.. So semua bills settle kan masa nk discharge.. Total: RM700+ including 5days warded n epidural.
7. Things to bring.
- ic
- buku checkup (buku merah/buku biru hukm+report card klinik swasta)
- surat last yg doc hukm bg masa last visit
- duit RM50
8. Few differences bwtn hukm n gov that I knew. Sumber utk experience gov adalah kwn2 yg brsalin kat gov.
- Diorg xsuruh blik even jln br bukak 1cm..
Sorg kenalan bitau..her case same as me.. Air ketuban da pecah, n jln br bukak 1cm..tp hosp gov suh blik dulu.
- at gov sblm blik, doc akan check semula private part which is ngeri n sakit. Tp kat hukm diorg xcheck pun. Rasa gembira xtrkata bila diorg ckp 'puan bole blik'
'Xde kena jmpe doc lg ke?'
'Xde'
=D
- at hukm, after deliver stay dlm labor room smpi la semua da ready diorg trus tolak dgn katil2 naik lif blik ke wad n tmpat yg sama.. Spjg kte kat labor nurse da prepare baby cot.. Mr.k ckp dia rasa lg debar2 masa naik ambk brg kat katil tgk baby cot da ready..hehe
Melalui sumber kwn yg bersalin kat gov. Lps deliver..dia kena tgu lg dkt luar which is xbrape comfortable utk org baru lps brsalin sementara tgu diorg settle down.

Sekian. Episode last having baby at hukm.
By the way, I'm not promoting hukm neither memburukkan hosp gov.
I just shared what I've been thru n heard.
Semuanya brgantung pd nasib..jd mommy to be berdoalah byk2 supaya semua urusan dpermudahkn n dpertemukan dgn org2 yg bersih hati nya..
Setiap hosp ada bad n good.. For me pengalaman deliver kat hukm was a good thing.. Most of the staff really helpful from the beginning.. Xdgr pun diorg mengumpat ckp buruk2 pasal patient.
Part yg krg best, u can't have ur husband on ur side every minute.. Sdgkn time 2 la kte sgt2 perlukn husband.. Emosi kena jaga2 sgt.. Mcm2 perasaan ada..u have to be calm by your own..
Next baby nk bersalin as FPP kat hosp putrajaya la..ehehe..
Wait. What? Next baby?? =P
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Ilhan Hadeef b Khairul Hafizan

26feb, 9.30am
Tgh tdo..ttbe rasa bsh. Lompat katil. Bush! Air keluar byk. Ada darah sikit2..
Terus call mr.k. Well, quite panic sbb air ketuban non stop keluar.
Gosok gigi.mandi.. Siap2.
Sementara 2 cuba call nenek to be.
Bebel nnk2be suh cpt2 pg hosp. Hehe
9.45am
Mr.k smpi. Capai pape yg patut. Terus pg emergency o&g. Tgu turn. Masuk bilik checkup.. Smpi kul 11 lbh. Diorg monitor jantung baby. Awal2 baby aktif. Da ujung2 baby tdo..hu
Around 11.15am.. Doc cek n suh masuk wad..
12pm
Smpi2 da ada nama kat katil. Cuak sbb xpernah tdo hosp..keke.. Contraction stil xbrape kuat..dpt lunch n not bad la rasa dia..even rupa xmenarik..
3.30pm
Doc dtg check n xde perubahan..Esk pg br msuk ubat utk kuatkn contraction..Unless tgh mlm nti sakit kuat..br diorg anta pg labor room. Time ni mr.k stil tmn kn smpi ptg. Since da dlm wad. Husband bole stay ikut waktu melawat.
Buang masa trmenung. Ngaji. Jln2. Brg. Tdo.. After 12, cntrctn da kerap. 5min skali. Tp xsakit sgt. Bole brthn lg.. Mr.k blik rumah..kesian nk suh dia tgu kat luar..lgpun xsakit sgt..
27feb,8.00am
Doc dtg check lg..pun sama. Rasa cam nk nangis gak. Sbb tau msti lama lg. N doc masukkn ubat. 1st dose.
Harap2 1 dose je la. Tgu smpi pukul 1 baru check lg..
1.00pm
Doc masukkn 2nd dose..n akan check blik pukul 6ptg.. Dlm pukul 3 ke atas contraction lg kuat. Da call mr.k nangis sbb sakit.. Mak da bising2 suh mr.k jmpe doc n req for czer..
Pukul 4.30 mr.k dtg tmnkn..dpt la tdo.. Tp lebam kot tgn mr.k kena genggam..hu
6.00pm
Check lg..n xde perubahan gak..Doc kata tgu smpai esk pg..
The whole nite sakit sgt n xthn mintak pain killer.. As suggested by anis..Nurse dtg cucuk kat peha around pukul 11
28feb, 6.00am
Doc check lg. Bukaan almost 3cm. Masih xckup. Tp da kena tolak 1st stage labor utk induce.
Induce kalo normal, 1jam bukaan akan trbukak 1cm..
8.00am
Msuk 1st stage labor. Xsmpat jmpe mr.k pun..tp dia da kat waiting area..
Sepjg dlm 1st stage tdo je.. Alhamdulillah xsakit sgt mybe sbb painkiller..
Doc dtg tye nk epidural ke x.. Masa tu fikir yg sakit mlm td pun rasa xtrthn.. Yes. I'm weak.. Rasa sedih gak sbb ambik epi..tp tah la.. Lebihnye rasa xyakin dgn kemampuan dr..takut pun ye jugak..
Ada m2b dpn katil..ble doc tnye dia ckp nk tye husband dulu.. Err..ai lupe yu, nk mntak izin..huhu.. Bgus betol m2b tu..
1.30pm
Da 8cm. Tolak masuk labor.. Masa ni da start sakit da.. Tuhan je yg tau mcm mana sakitnye.. Kata2 smgt..puitis dr mr.k da xmembantu.. Fikir sakit.. Mengucap..n doa ble nk abis..
3pm
Doc suh tgu lg..target kul 4.20 baru bole proceed.. Subhanallah.. Subhanallah.. Ble diingatkan balik.. Fewh..
4.20pm
Baru doc 2-3 org n nurses 3-4 org prepare for delivery..
Rasa give up masa tu ada.. Tp cpt buang perasaan tu.. Cpt2 hilang bisikan yg xsepatutnye..
Yg kelakar..bole trfikir.. 'Kalo nk gv up normal, nti xbole breastfeed'..
N sbnrnye masa tu jugak dlm keadaan separuh sdr.. Ada mimpi mcm2.. Dgr semua menjerit2 suh teran je.. Alhamdulillah semua pmpn dlm 2 except mr.k la.. Masa baby nk kuar dgr doc suh mr.k tgk..
Slps 20min lahir lah ilhan hadeef.. Perasaan xpercaya yg xbole dgambarkn.. Tgk dia keluar.. Menangis.. Syp lps dbersihkn.. Tgk muka yg sempurna..bersih..suci..
*T_T*
Rasa risau spjg pregnant..excited.. Mcm2 la..semua jd mcm unbelievable..
Lps dbersihkn Ilhan kena ltk bwh lampu sbb suhu bdn dia rendah.. Tp kat seblah katil je..by the time diorg bersihkn mommy nye pulak.. Sakit sikit tp dpt fully bius masa jahit xrasa apa pun.. Mr.k kena tgu luar..nurse salinkn bj..cuci2 apa yg patot..pastu baru mr.k bole masuk.. Ilhan stil kat bwh lmpu. Xdpt pegang. Dpt tgk je.. Da lama sket mr.k mintak izin nk azankn..Time ni pun rase lemah sgt. Xmampu nk angkat even 1 jari.. Diorg bg milo n roti utk topup energy..
Lps pead da check n monitor baru dpt pegang baby n bf..
Ada nurse yg guide mcm mana nk bf..Tp ilhan nk tdooo je.. Nurse kejutkn pun xnk bgn..hu
Pukul 7 lebih dah dtolak semula ke wad.. Keluar labor..nmpk mak abah adik2..N bermula la kehidupan shaherra shahrani sbg seorg ibu.. T_T
Alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah..

*next entry cte psl 7days motherhood xperience plak k..
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