2nd nite. Da start meragam.siang masa ramai org dtg lawat ilhan behave sgt2..tp lepas cik umi blik je..lps mgrb, dia da start xbole ltk..
Dah susu..da tepuk2.. Nangis je.. Nk pg toilet pun xdpt..
Akhirnye pukul 2pagi baru dpt bersihkn bdn n blik2 toilet ilhan melalak.. Since ada 2-3 baby lg yg nangis..so xde la rasa brslh sgt..
N mlm tu..bentan..hu.. Dgn katil2 skali rasa gegar sbb menggigil teruk.. Pgl nurse, dia ambk ilhan n bg extra selimut.. Lps tu da xsdr n tau2 da pukul 5..nurse pulangkan ilhan..
Sakitnye bdn..xselesanye tuhan je tau.. Then whole day ilhan buat perangai ups n down..
Doa sgt2 bole blik aritu sbb seriously I need help.. Duduk hosp nurse bkn tlg sgt.. Diorg dtg bersihkn baby je pagi2..
Alhamdulillah, 2mac dlm pukul 6 da bole discharge..
Btw ptg tu tergempar jugak ilhan peepee brdarah.. Ada red stain kat pampers.. Ble doc check xde pape.. Its just crystal n normal.
Mlm tu mula journey xtdo mlm.. Xdpt nk baring pun sbb ilhan menangis je.. Tp nasib baik ada mak n mr.k..
Mak la yg tepuk2.bwk sana sini.. Abah bc kan ayat mcm2..
I was so busy with pumping.. Mr.k urut2 kan bdn n soothing me..
Subhanallah..rase brsyukur sgt dikelilingi dgn org2 yg sgt memahami..
Mmg ilhan xcukup susu.. Smpi guna sudu..bg 1 sudu diam..me keep pumping sbb nk kumpul lg satu sudu..n setitik pun ms tu sgt berharga.. *kesat air mata*
Masuk hari ketiga mak da start brbunyi cr susu formula..tp xpush sgt..n stil negotiable ble mintak bg masa lg.. But then dia suh mr.k pg klinik utk cr milk booster..
N mengalah jugak ble mak bg air zamzam.. Nasib baik ada air zamzam.. That day mata ilhan da start ada kuning2..so gilir2 bg susu n air zamzam..
Alhamdulillah.. Mr.k pg farmasi n dia cdgkan minum ni.
Lps minum ni susu mmg bertambah but ilhan now asking for more.. Until now I'm stil coping but not really struggling.. Rasa bersyukur sgt2 dgn support yg dpt dr mak n mr.k.. Without them I'm might only cry n do nothing..
Mak ckp..ni la hikmah I was so sbr brthn tgu smpi 3 hari baru bersalin.. *sbb ada one time dia call ms kat hosp xmampu nk brckp sbb sakit. Then dia da push mr.k utk tye doc if I shud go for ceaserian* mak kan.. Cpt risau.. Tp me n mr.k mcm biasa..mintak masa.. Hehe..
Kalau czer..I can't cope with bf..
Then hikmah ilhan menangis xberenti.. We know he didn't get enough milk.. Mmg letih yg teramat.. Tp I've tried not too stress bout that.. Keep calm.. N akhirnye ilhan is jaundice free..
I'm proud of myself. Seriously..
Skrg ilhan sdg membesar..ramai tegur dia cpt besar.. Nothing made me proud the most bila org tye.'Susu bdn?'
'A'a..susu bdn' =D
Ada ups n down everyday, its aint easy.. Mmg bole fhm kenapa ada mommies yg xdpt nk teruskn..
Semangat mmg kena jitu n supports from elders, husband..
Me. I got
Mak yg byk sgt tlg..yg plg penting she trust me as always..tu da sgt2 cukup..
MIL yg support dr jauh.. Kalau call selalu ckp kita kena yakin..mcm2 mana pun bf is the best milk ever.
My husband yg tlg picitkn bdn..tlg angkat..tlg suapkan mkn..tlg suapkan air..tlg uruskan ilhan..
I'm so blissful..syukur ya allah..
Semoga sy terus tabah n full of passion utk bf ilhan..n semoga ada rezeki ilhan sbb I'm truly ikhlas to bf u son.. Amin.
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Cgrats.
:)
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