Terima Kasih tuhan!

Assalamualaikum after 3 years..

owh wow..sekelip mata it has been 3 years after my previous rambling. may be ada yang rasa lama nak melalui hari2 yg berlalu..n may be ada yang rasa sekejap.

hi nobody!

how is everyone?.. sempat blog hopping dkt blog yg ada recent post and terasa mcm ya allah iraa.. byk syok sendiri sampai tak sedar ada yang lamaaa tak keep in touch. to u, who know who you are, ira mintak maaf ya. but percaya lah.. if u need me.. i will always be right here. ok!!

well, ilhan has upgraded to an abg of two. 😆

alhamdulillah.. walaupun mcm cepat sgt n dia ada la jugak jeles sikit2 but i hope we managed it well. my previous post was the experienced of my miscarriage kan. selepas setahun, we try again and our healthy izfar hakeem was born at 1 dec 2018. i choose the date to conceived and to delivered. haha!

pengalaman mengeluarkan hakeem adalah sesuatu yg mengerikan and menyeramkan utk dikenang balik. my post partum has developed grade 5 hemorrhoids and had to went thru a hemorrhoidectomy on 3rd day after deliver. subhanallah and alhamdulillah, 20 hari post surgery i'm back to myself. sepanjang sakit dari hari 1st sampai ke 20 tu, macam2 rasa.. a good thing about my perangai yg suka bercerita.. i get a lot of support from friends and even ada yg share their same experience. somehow, those sharing buat rasa lega sgt. sbb tau x bila kita sakit kita akan tertanya2.. sampai bila sakit ni?.. lama lg ke?.. akan makin teruk x?.. akan jadi manusia normal balik x?.. so ni semua benda yg kita bljr dari pengalaman n pengalaman org lain. seems my byk mulut brings benefit jugak. hehehe

anyway, hakeem pun dah nak masuk 1 tahun 9 bulan this coming september. and guess what? i had another baby and its a girl!!..

subhanallah, nikmat apa lg yg ingin didustakan ira. of course being a mom you wish for a baby girl. jeles tgk org ada anak perempuan.. tp bukan la maksudnya x syg dkt anak2 lelaki ni. but having a baby girl is not in our plan yet. sesungguhnya kita merancang dan allah yg menentukan.

masa tau pregnant while hakeem just about 9months masa tu, mmg rasa seram jugak. tp xde la emosi sgt. cuma dlm kepala dah start fikir la.. apa nak buat, apa patut buat.

honestly, masa pregnant hakeem byk sgt masalah emosi, walaupun ira nampak mcm org yg happy go lucky.. tp ira jugak adalah seorg attention seeker lagi2 kepada suami. jadinya perjalanan membawa hakeem awal2 tu tidak lah indah sgt.. both of us struggle at the part of not being so sensitive or be sensitive. hehe.. so when we know im again pregnant. i just ask my husband if he will support me. i understand a LOT and learnt a LOT on my previous pregnancy. just to confirm that he will try again another round with me and he said..yes, he will try. alhamdulillah.

aaanndd.. the journey of having ilana was the happiest, hakeem lasak but cheeky, ilhan manja but independent and x memberontak. im truly a happy pregnant woman. 

delivering ilana also the easiest, get the experienced deliver during MCO when the husband was not allowed to be on your side, when you have to undergo the covid test, when you went to somewhat empty hospital and lot of wad yg tutup, when our normal life is now changed to new normal. masyaallah.. looking back.. byknya cerita yg boleh kongsi pd anak2 cucu akan dtg kan..

now, ilana will be in her 4th month in 4 days. she's quite chubby and belum tunjuk lagi tanda2 rajin nak meniarap. baru sekali 2 je dia tertiarap kot. muatan lebih..peha besar.. haha

subhanallah.. syukur alhamdulillah dgn semua rezeki yg mencurah2 ni.. andai kata umur mommy tak panjang.. ketahuilah lah.. saat ini, saat mommy typing utk post ni.. mommy bersyukur sgt dgn semua yg kita ada.. walaupun da almost 2 bulan mommy asik bukak page beli handbag idaman and beli emas idaman tapi tak beli2 and end up bukak shopee add to cart susu dan pampers anak2.. tp mommy bersyukur.. i am so blessed despite of being such a sinful khalifah. semoga allah x uji mommy dgn dugaan yg tak mampu mommy tanggung. terima kasih allah!!

to my man,

thank you thank you thank you, i cant thank you enough for having you, you have done a lot for me, in return insyaallah i will take care of you too. semoga allah jaga and lindungi you, hati you, amin.

to my kids, 

i love you with all my hearts. be someone with a great heart ok!!